Stupid Bone Spurs

Ooops Im not supossed to say stupid :) This is long and maybe boring to some but its much easier to type this than call all the people that want to know how yesterday went :) So bare with me! As some of you know I FINALLY went to the Dr. yesterday for my hip. For those of you that don't know what I'm talking about.... I have had bone spurs in my left hip for well I really don't know how long. When I had Ansley they got REALLY bad. So for the past four years I have just been dealing with it. Ive had good days and bad days but lately they have all been really bad days. Its gotten to where I cant do hardly anything and end up in bed for the rest of the day. So from much pushing from family and friends I went to the Dr. They took x-rays and came back in the room and asked "how long have you been living this way"? She said that there is not even a little cartilage in my joint and I need to go have a MRI to see all the damage and see where we go from there. So I go for the MRI and I just want to say it was probably the worst thing I have ever gone through. Ok thats exaggerating but it was in the top 3 :) I'm sure your like all you do is lay there. Well laying flat on my back is really painful but then they wanted me to point my toes inward.... my left one just doesnt to that. So she taped my feet together!!!! I had to lay there for 30 minutes. I almost didnt make it. I had tears running down my face but I just kept praying and saying Im going to make it, Im not going to do this again. Needless to say I was out of commission for the rest of the day :) But thats also why Im writing all this.... God has giving me great gifts in the people in my life. My brother Cole watched Ansley in the morning for the first Dr and then Haley came to watch her in the afternoon. While she was here she vacuumed and took out the trash for me (I love this girl) most of you think thats no big deal but to me it was such a blessing! Eric came home as soon as he could and made supper and was very sweet all night (well hes always pretty sweet) he just was extra nice to me :) As much as they help I have a really hard time excepting it. That's my job and I feel like a failure when I cant do it.
I hate that Ansley has to ask all the time if I'm all right, do you need your cane, can you tuck me in tonight. I think it was at the mother daughter tea party Ansley was talking to Ruth and she asked Ansley about playing with me or something like that and Ansley said "well we can play games and stuff but mom cant play Polly pockets or barbies with me on the floor cause it hurts her too bad to be on the floor". It broke my heart to know I'm limiting her relationship with me. Ruth was so sweet and said that her mom was the same but they could do other fun things together. She always knows what to say. Again another blessing to me.
Well I will get the results from that horrible test later today or tomorrow and then we will see where to go from here. She was pretty sure it will be some kind of surgery. So for those of you that pray I would love those prayers because I really don't want surgery. Thanks for listening and praying for me. I will keep you all updated. You are all a blessing to me!