




I went to the Dr for my pre op visit yesterday and to my pre surgery class. There is this whole other world out there for hip replacement people that I had no idea even existed. It went pretty good except there was alot of walking. Eric asked me why I didn't ask for a wheel chair....... well to be honest (I'm always honest) the thought never crossed my mind. I told Eric there would have been no one to push me and you know my measly arm muscles wouldn't get me very far :) Ansley stayed the night with her Nona since my appointment was at 9. She had a blast. When Shelly brought her back Ansley crashed on my bed with me for about an hour. For those of you who know Ansley .........that is very rare. She was so cute. If I could have gotten out of bed I would have taken a picture. When she was asleep like that I couldn't help think how little she still is ..... its only when shes asleep though. When shes awake she talks all the time and that's when you forget shes only 4. I love how her little mind works!
Last night like I said I couldn't get out of bed. I have never felt pain like I did last night. Never! It started when I went to the fair (I know I shouldn't have gone but seeing Ansley and Kinley there is something I could never get back) and then the Drs yesterday. I didn't have time to get better. By last night I had taken every kind of medicine I had and nothing would put a dent in it. I told Eric if I didn't get any relief in an hour we were going to the hospital and they could just knock me out. The meds I had were the strongest you can get and they did nothing. I finally turned to him! God! Why I do that when I can no longer take it I don't know.I should start there! I guess I try it my way first, second and on and on until I finally give up and give it to him. I don't know if others out there are the same but I like to control everything. And hes telling me I cant control him. He wants to be with me in every moment of every day. So I'm laying there crying (which I hate to do) and I told Eric to call my mother in law and ask her to pray for me. So Eric, Shelly, Lisa and I prayed and I would love to say I was immediately healed but I wasn't. Not that I don't think he could have if he wanted to. But I did get relief, my pain was bearable. I got some sleep and I am feeling a little better today. Ansley and I are having a movie day......laying around coloring, watching movies and cuddling. Shes so funny I told her we were going to stay in our pjs all day ....... she asked a million questions like am I going to do her hair, do I get to take a bath (I said if you want) she decided not to and this might be a good day after all. So today I'm thanking God for the love he has for me and the strength I have found through him and asking for forgiveness for all the things I try to do on my own. Thank you all for all your prayers...... I feel loved!